What is it? What?

What is it? What?Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

Yesterday.........Yesterday I’m walking from home to the bus stop and seeing as I’m studying to be a journalist, i start to study my surrounding and the people in them. It is 4:00 pm and I’m going to school while school children in uniform are coming home from school. Before i reach the bus stop i meet these four people, two are school children and the other two, well, one of them is definitely a teenager - i can tell from the acne on her facial skin and the silly way in which she giggles - the other might or not be a teenager, her face appears a little more mature, a little more hardened. These two older girls are each holding a child's hand; from that and the way they shepherded the children, I conclude that they are both maids, or as we like to call them in Kenya, "Aunties". This might seem like it took a long time to arrive at but it was a lightning speed mental calculation that took but a fraction, of a fraction, of a second. Just them I think to myself “I am so lucky not to be like them". This then leads to another train of thought. i think how lucky i am that i have a future..... and then it hits me and I wonder.....what future? For all I know, Life ends tomorrow, never or right now! I could live for a year, rich and seemingly happy and poor, miserable and regretful for the next fifty or so years. i could be perfectly healthy till my dying day or i could get cancer or diabetes or i could go blind or i could get smashed in a car accident, or i could fall down some stairs and be paralyzed or I could step on a pebble and just land the wrong way leaving me bedridden. it doesn't matter who i am, and only a little of what i do might actually matter. There seems to be no way to avoid certain happenings, happenings which someone decided to call fate. There seems to be a higher power that controls us and what happens to us no matter what precautions or measures we take. And then I begin to wonder why am I still alive? What keeps me going? Why do I do what I do? The Aunties had something to look forward to, to be thankful for. In spite of the entire negative potential our - their lives have, they still can afford to smile, laugh and make others laugh. There are so many questions i would have liked to ask them. Questions that i will ask YOU!

What drives, what inspires you, why and how?
who, what do you live for? Why do you think you are alive, is this aliveness for real or are we all in one conglomeration of a dream. Where who, what, how do you want to be? Where, who, what, how are you actually? Where, who. what, how do you think you are? Do you think you'll ever get to where you want to be, be who you want to be, how you want to be? What you want to be?

Is it worth it, what you're willing to do to get there? What is this aliveness, this world, this state we who are not dead are in? Can someone please tell me? Does anyone know for sure?

POOF!!!!!
Have you ever walked into a room and your eyes fallen on just the person that you wanted to see, your legs drawn towards that person? Have you had words in your mouth that you felt were meant for you to speak to that person and once spoken, felt that they were perfectly understood? And have you looked into that person's eyes and known for sure yours were meant for that person’s to look into. Have you ever held that ones hand and fitted in it like it were your own skin? Has there ever been a time when you were both in this perfect moment and it felt like an entire life-time and then with one snap of a finger................ it was all gone never to return? Well, what can I say?

IT'S GONE. Yes it happened but it's gone. So get used to it!
MOVE ON! Be the best you can be for and to someone who actually needs you!!!!!!

¯BONDAGE¯

HIGHSCHOOL POETRY

I realize that life is short and that it's also the damn longest thing you ever do. I want my life to be for a reason. Maybe for someone, or something. Not something, definitely someone or several people. I'm not an extremely good speaker but sometimes i get inspired and in turn inspire others. I am however very comfortable singing my thoughts, my advice, my feelings to people its the way i communicate best. i hope this touches you who reads this. its a poem i wrote when i was fifteen and in high school to encourage myself to be patient with life and with the people in my life. It even got published in the Daily Nation Newspaper tow years later when I decided to give my self a chance to shine.Yup you got it right, i'm bragging. Here it goes:

Its Only One Night
But I Don't Feel So Bright
I’ll Be Leaving, But I'll Be Back Tomorrow
Keep Me In Your Mind And Maybe You Will Find
A Reason, Not To Lie In Sorrow

Seasons And Ages
They Keep Passing By
Through Valleys And Ranges
Let Your Spirit By Me Fly
And Though There Are Mountains
And Valleys To Go Through
Courage Flows Like A Fountain
Because Of You

I Bid You Farewell
In Your Heart I Dwell
So Long Now
But I Know We’ll Be Together
There’s No Need To Cry
Or Even Wonder Why
Why I’m Leaving
This Will All Be Over

Seasons And Ages
They Keep Passing By
Through Valleys And Ranges
Let Your Spirit By Me Fly
Don’t Let Illusions Ruin Your Peaceful Like
Don’t Succumb To Delusions
Till I’m Back In Your Life

♪ BONDAGE ♪

CRAPPY DAY CONTINUES FOREVER OR NOT?

So today is supposed to be one of those many worst days of my life, and i must say its going on just as expected. Wonder! Do you ever walk through most of your days wondering what the hell your supposed to do with your life? Maybe it's just me. I'm so dull today that i have nothing positive to say. I'll just sympathise with all a' y'all who feel like this. bye bye.
YOURS TRULY

CHIKITAKOOKI