It's All Good 2

Did I forget to tell you that Deno kissed me twice! Shock! Horror!No. No Horror, just delight. He's got this thing with me, everytime we meet, he's got to kiss my neck or my cheek. I totally love it. I hate to admit it but...there it is. If anyone I know actually reads this....It will be the end of me. He doesn't know this but, it makes me weak in the knees.

I'm wary not to fall for him because, him being a musician and famous and all, the likelyhood of him getting hunted by all other hot chics is like 100% so I won't even try. Sometimes when I'm leaving and I look at him, he looks disappointed and I think for a moment that he actually wants to keep my company. but then I look at who he is and who I am and conclude; what the hell would guy like him want with a reject like me. Anyway, it's all good.

That night at Rezoras, I kept looking at him, just to see if he would look back. He did. And we smiled at each other, twice. But I didn't feel a thing because I had already decided to block myself and only behave mechanically. If he smiles, I smile back. If he wants to kiss me, I offer the cheek. I rest my case. I am totally confused when it comes to men. I simply harden my heart when I fear I'll be hurt. I just wish I could let myself get hurt once....actually I have.

I never learnt how to give myself since then...
&Bondage&