Project Fame....Idols?

Sunday May 4, 2008, 8:57pm.

Tusker Project FameAt last my suspicions have been confirmed. That mean talking, neck twisting, full-to-the-brim ego, narcissistic Tusker Project Fame Judge, Ian is Crooked. And No, I don’t hate him, I’m just describing him.

Who, after watching Sunday’s performance, wouldn’t have put the annoying, but good looking Hemedi on probation, and fairly so. Hemedi gave a lucklustre performance which after being criticized by Ian, was overlooked by the very same Ian, when deciding who should go on probation.

To make it even worse, the so called judges, unfairly put Wendy, Alice and Lina on probation. These three were among the best performers of the night. And Oh! To put Wendy on probation is criminal.

Asha didn’t do that well, agreed, but considering, Hemedi should be there to keep her company. Another thing…the girl who performed last, Winfrey, was it? Didn’t do that well and she was praised as much as David was. And David did really well. Anyone who watched the show would agree. Was it because she shook her ass and waist so much or wore tight clothes that they liked her so much? Don’t know, but honestly, to praise her that much and put Wendy on probation is crooked.

David as always, did very well, though I know he could do better. The other guy who did a song by a certain James Ingram (or something) didn’t do that well either. So here is what I think should have happened.

That guy (James Ingram singer), Hemedi, Win
frey and Victor should be the ones on probation. Not Lina, Not Alice and definitely not Wendy.

I especially think that Ian put Wendy down for a reason that only he knows, and being the loud mouth with the ‘go-against-me-and-see’ technique that he is, I’m inclined to think that he muscled the two other judges into siding with him.

Felly, who did Sean Kingston, was pretty good. He had good interaction with the crowd and his voice was okay, but no, he doesn’t look better than Sean Kingston.

Victor didn’t do that well either and should be where Asha is right now. The judges are being pretty unfair. Judges, are the producers telling you to be controversial to get more viewers?

So my probation list includes Victor, The Guy, Hemedi and Winfrey. Her voice control wasn’t as good as the judges made it out to be.

Good TV people, is there a way to fire Ian and get someone with good ears. Really, I think the white hairs on his head and chin are indication enough that his hearing might be failing. Really! Anyone who was watching would agree that the judging was a bit off this Sunday. Don’t know why really. Maybe that was just a TV performance. But, tell you what. It was downright unfair and dishonest for some of the contestants.

Ian I believe that you are unnecessarily nasty, unfair like a one eyed pirate when it comes to musical sight and a lot of talented people will be eliminated just because you want to be seen as the bad guy who sticks to his guns. Ian, drop the Simon Cowell act and just be you. You look real silly trying to iga a British millionaire.

Judges, you judge the contestants and we will judge you.

IDOLS

Neeeeeext……WARNING!!! No…Advice!

Never, ever, ever, ever, underestimate the talent that others have and never believe in yourself so much that you don’t appreciate others

It was a coincidence perhaps but this is what happened. When Idols came to Nairobi and were just about to for their group auditions, one contestant, a guy, said:

“I’ve been watching a few of the auditions and judging from what I’ve seen, the competition is nothing to worry about”

Okay.

Another contestant, a girl this time, said:

I’ve seen some people perform and honestly the talent is Whack!”

Whack?

Well guess what? Both the guy and the girl are now former contestants. Don’t know if the judges removed them because they performed badly or because they challenged their judgment by calling the talent Whack, but they are now gone, and all for calling other people’s abilities whack. They didn’t even get to perform individually. How sad.

Please Idols, watch your mouths. Speak only what you need to and keep the rest (thoughts and feelings) to yourself, then it will be released as emotion when you are on stage. Trust me I know.

Well, that’s it from me. Until someone else screws up and I’ll be ready….key board at hand.

Njeri.

Pilipli says it's okay to smoke a little MaryJane

What?
Good old genge artist Pilipili had few trips in and out of the country and decided that because of that, he could say anything and people would take it lying down. What?

On Thursday May 1 2008, Pili appeared on Str8 Up talking about what he's been doing while not appearing on TV, blah, blah, blah. So very casually Lina the host of the show, asks him whether he feels that he is indirectly supporting the activities of crime, seeing as he does a genre of music that means Gang, (gang music)

Pili very quickly and thoughtlessly replies:

"Ah, No! I don't do Genge, my style is very different. What I do, I would have to call G&B, yaani Genge and Blues"

Lina: But isn't that still Genge? It has genge in it, doesn't it?

Duh!

Pili: Ah no! Enyewe, I don't think Genge is a bad genre of music, genge ni poa, haileti maviolence

.....or something like that is what he said.

Well, if i'm not wrong, and I know that I'm not G&B has G in it which stands for, oh I don't know, Genge maybe?!

Woi! Pili please stick to one thing and defend it to the end even though it is wrong ama get stronger arguements. And Gosh Pili, not to make you sound shallow lakini, do you really think critically before you speak? BEcause, you know, we won't think you are slow if you just take a little time before you open your mouth. it is wise for anyone, especially a celebrity to choose words very wisely.

The next set of questions really gave Pili away as a likely ganja smoker. I said likely.
Anyway, now comes the scariest words that this man uttered during the very same show. We'll y'all know that there's a Turbulence concert going on as we speak, right? Today, May 2, 2008? So Pili goes ahead to praise turbulence, says that he's a great performer, has great energy on stage and psyches people up, right?

Then Lina asks: But don't you think that the kind of music that Turbulence and other reggae artists do promotes violence and smoking weed?

Pili: Which weed are you talking about? you know there's the weed that grows in the shamb.....

Linah: No, no,no you know which weed I'm talking about. The one and only weed (she indicates with her fingers and her mouth that she's holding a smoke)

Pili: Oooooh. Ok (in swahili). Yes, I know that people really abuse weed sometimes, they abuse it, but I don't see any harm in smoking a little bit of it.

Did you mom or dad, watching with your kids feel your heart stop just as he said that? Of course not, because you are never home with your kids are you? Even when you get a day off like Labour Day, you sleep right through it and let your kids watch people telling them that smoking weed "ain't such a bad thing if you smoke a little. And who are the audience, little boys and girls just in the baby steps of puberty, curious about everything. Gosh! Pili. Someone ought to make good use of duck tape around your mouth and fingers. That way, you wouldn't say or write something as preposterous as that. Oh Lord help our youth because people like Pili who utter careless statements are the actual people that the youth look up to and want to emulate.

Heaven forbid if that be so because we shall be raising a nation of weed smokers.

This goes out to all celebrities, made and in the making. Protect your youth by thinking about the effects your words will have and not uttering such careless statements like "smoking a little weed is good"

What?

You'd rather lie and save a few young guys, than tell the truth and take them all down with you. Sometimes, a lie is not always with ill intent.

Insanity: The Poem II

And I’m going to suffer for as long as it takes
You can be sure that I’ll exceed the stakes
Find you, your soul, and make you see
That all that you are belongs with me
I’ll cry, beg, lie if need be
Scream, shout and I know that eventually
You will shiver, look beside you and discover me
For that is where I will always be
At any moment you feel bound and need setting free.

By Njeri Gikuni

Insanity: The Poem

It's never my wish to curve your heart out,
And I'm just discovering that I can't do without,
That whisper of laughter that leaves your mouth,
Or those eyes you give me that send mine south,
Or your scraggly hair that tickles my fingers,
Or that heart, frustrating to any digger.
I never mean to crush your dreams,
Send you mad with waning screams,
But time will clear your blurry mind
And you will be repaid in kind
With love that seethes mad and free
From the heart of someone other than me

By
Njeri Gikuni

Well, I don't remember the last time I wrote or what I wrote about. All I know is that it seems like I can't make it a daily routine. I can....maybe I just don't try hard enough. I get sidetracked too easily. I do. I know and I admit it.

School started mid february, March is coming to an end. All the goals I had set before I started school, have not materialized. They will someday.
My music has come to a stand still. My good friends, who I won't lie are enviable in who they are, are getting things done and moving ahead. Me, stagnant as a .....thing that doesn't move. That won't last long however. I shall be moving very soon. In fact, sooner than you think. Sooner than I think. I always think, no, feel like I'll just let it all go to hell when I get to a point like this. But No! I always end up writing like this, encouraging myself, telling myself that it's not all gone to hell, it will be coming back soon that thing that keeps me going, my muse, my spirit. I wish I could.

Usually it does. Always, it does.....

The Long absence

Has not been so bad. I actually have had a little fun, a few screw ups and many, many trials and temptations some of which I have not overcome but will overcome everytime from now on.

Well, let's start with Rezorus. The best thing that ever happened to me. I sang and danced and I totally felt like John Mayer on stage. No actually, my manager tells me I behaved like Jimi Hendrix. The coolest feeling on earth...

Don't know what else to say so I'll sign off now.

THE SUN HAS SET

On friday afternoon, I went to see my favorite Aunt in hospital...I had just found out that on top of the Ovarian cancer she had been diagnosed with four years ago...she had a hyatus hernia and the cancer had spread to the liver.

before I left I said, "Auntie, I'll come see you tomorrow"
She said,' Yah, you come see me ....' she smiled so I thought ..."Wow, she f eels better already"
When to morrow came, I told my uncle that I would come see her @ 4:00 in the afternoon
She died at 12:00pm

It's All Good 2

Did I forget to tell you that Deno kissed me twice! Shock! Horror!No. No Horror, just delight. He's got this thing with me, everytime we meet, he's got to kiss my neck or my cheek. I totally love it. I hate to admit it but...there it is. If anyone I know actually reads this....It will be the end of me. He doesn't know this but, it makes me weak in the knees.

I'm wary not to fall for him because, him being a musician and famous and all, the likelyhood of him getting hunted by all other hot chics is like 100% so I won't even try. Sometimes when I'm leaving and I look at him, he looks disappointed and I think for a moment that he actually wants to keep my company. but then I look at who he is and who I am and conclude; what the hell would guy like him want with a reject like me. Anyway, it's all good.

That night at Rezoras, I kept looking at him, just to see if he would look back. He did. And we smiled at each other, twice. But I didn't feel a thing because I had already decided to block myself and only behave mechanically. If he smiles, I smile back. If he wants to kiss me, I offer the cheek. I rest my case. I am totally confused when it comes to men. I simply harden my heart when I fear I'll be hurt. I just wish I could let myself get hurt once....actually I have.

I never learnt how to give myself since then...
&Bondage&

It's All Good

Wednesday night came and i had what I think was a blast. I performed at Rezoras. Two songs. I thought I played the guitar very plainly. The first song was "Matuko Mothe" (my own composition; it means "All the days of my life" and the other one was "Collide", you know, by Howie Day. That's the one that people cheered for. Nobody seemed to like my song.

Any way,before I performed, i went to the Bathroom to check out my face and piss away my anxiety and i noticed that my whole face was one big mountain of bumps.The next day, i discovered that the rest of my body was bumpity bump land. I think its those clothes I bought from Grace, evil woman.Okay, okay, I know its not her fault.I should have washed those clothes before wearing them....but it was an emergencey!!!!REALLY!

You see the evening before, The Editor from the The Nation calls and asks if i can come for an interview. I say yes and agree to be there by 12:30, I have a make up exam that same morning @ 11:00am, the lecturer doesn't show up so I arrange to take the CAT later in the afternoon....after which i have to go change my clothes again, go meet Eric at the Studio and then change my clothes to suit him....AGAIN! So I'm in a Mat to Mada when guess who calls. Eric calls and says that I shouldn't go to Mada coz the "guys" are all in Tao ati at Pasara's.

Now at that very moment I'm thinking to myself, what the f*&#k should I do to show this guy that if he makes an arrangement, he should stick to it or else notify me when he makes changes. Plus, I don't have money to waste zooming up and down town. There are better uses I could put my money to.

But, I remained calm...actually no, i was so f*&cking pissed but i managed to go to the studio, change my clothes and head back for town.

Earth hath no stupidity like that of a man who can't stick to plans, he himself made. Eric says that he's at Pasaras with akina Deno and Steve and whoever else. I get there ..... he says he's on K-street.BUT HE SAID HE WAS AT PASARAS!!!!

If I had been alone, it might have been alright you see i could have just turned on my heels and headed back for home(I couldn't have afforded to set my foot in Pasara's; you pay like 1,000 just to look in) but no. William, my keyboardist was with me and had planned to be out of Rezoras by 9:00. It is now 8:00 and we are still waiting for Eric outside Pasara's nowhere near Rezoras or Westlands for that matter.

I call the guy a million times and he says that I'm becoming rude! Rude? Rude?....Rude is when you tell someone to meet you at 6pm and show up at 10pm unpeturbed. Rude is when you say you're in Pasaras when you are actually on K-street and ask me to wait for you outside Pasaras. for 2 f*%#ing hours.

Anyway, I decided to call my brother Gungun so he could take Will and me to Rezoras. He picks us up and we drive to Westlands in his white rental. My uncle from America who's paid for the car and whom I haven't see for about 15 years, I'm now 22, Kindly offers to buy us supper before we go to Rezoras. I eat a whole pizza alone, Will naively went for the chicken and fries.

Unlce gives me 1,000Kshs and I think to myself "Wow, now i can actually look into Pasara's". Then he lets me keep the change after he bought Will and me supper. Wow, he reminds me so much of my other brother, he's ever giving.

So anyway, we get to Rezoras and the music is too bloody loud. The singers are horrendous, but the guy on the drums is kinda cute and he plays like a rock star. The guitarist is one of our omore famous actors from Better Days ( what a hunk) and he too plays like a rock star. He and the Bass Guitarist( Another shy hunk) have this wierd connection that only they can understand. They keep looking at each other and play mad tunes.Wow! I think I still have a crush on the Guitarist...maybe it's just because he's famous....Naaaah! I ain't that shallow.

My turn to play comes so Will and me go to the the stage....surprisingly...I'm not nervous or scared...but I'm not happy either so when I sing, you can tell that I'm not feeling the music...especially on my first song. But when I sing "Collide" the crowd goes wild and everybody is cheearing. Deno is taking a video of me perfoming and when I look at him, I blush for the camera...or maybe it was for him....you know...i think that was a very good performance in terms of..."i had no fear" but terrible because the crowd didn't feel me entirely. I bored them in the beginning.

Steve was happy, Eric pretended to be happy, Shaffie was there with his wife...Shinde was there, Sheila Mwanyigah was there, Who knows who else was there. Obviously I didn't do very well because no one has called me since then not even Eric. I plan to go see him tomorrow. Or at least go to the studio and find out what's cooking.

V bugs me alot. I don't believe he's good enough for me. I'm polite and tell my self to give him a chance, but then I do and I'm totally disappointed. So I think it best to just rule him out Mapema. I know he likes me, he does. Unfortunately, I don't like him the same way. I think...he's a very good writer but I also think that he's unconciously trying to destroy and derail me. That's the end of that chapter. I'm done with him. Now, how to tell him!

Okay, I'm all burnt out. Think I'll rest now.
&Bondage&